Glazing upon the sky, being in awe of the beauty of the creations. To Him, I will trust upon who is unfailing. On the contrast, self seems to be a vulnerable being. Tripping and falling endlessly. How I long to be like Him.

Days pass, earth continues to rotate, not stopping to wait for any. Self seems to be trap in a dilemma. Should i go forward, confront then move on? Or allow things to remain as it is?

Storms come and go, but the foundation of the old building was never really tested. Ages have passed but still it remains standing tall, giving the shelter to the poor and weak. Times fly and the young learnt to move according to times, giving no appreciation to the old building that sees through generations. Are we a generation of the ungrateful wanting what we think well or the humble ones who know how to give thanks and be grateful to what we have?

Time torments people. How can one truly use it to the advantage or succumb and be defeated by it? Heart seeks for just a little more. Surging appeal for a warm and cozy fire, but is it the right fervor?

The Sun progresses according to His will,
Things changes as we mature in age.
Brand new start for a brighter path?
Or a road downhill?
Memory prompting fresh in mind,
Longing for the days of the good old past.
What can I do to keep my hopes secure?
How can I preserve till the time is right?
I will wrestle, but still I will wait.
I will feel lost, but I will persevere.
For my heart has been stolen by You alone.

May the journey strengthen our souls, till the time is ripe.

Darkness creeps into the vacant room, light seems no longer visible. Loneliness vacant the soul, left with fears and doubts. Veil of secrecy conceal only the surface, supression merely restraint. Changes simply crack the brittle glass. Beneath the icy cold surface awaits a warm fire burning? Failed conformation or true transformation in progress?

from dust we are and to dust we return.. how true it is, we ourselves do knoe.. much i long this will not happen, o Lord i'm fearful.. Bless this firstborn for You are a compassionate God, how much I long to c him growing up. Heal him, save him, for he is young. How wonderful You have created him, bestow Your blessing upon him.

As i sit down and pondering and listening to worship songs, i began to reflect on my walk with God. Honestly, i have not being doing well for the past week. Btw, time seems fast and is going three years le. Thru high and low i have experience, really let me see alot of truth in life. Time realli test. Remember in the past when i came to church with i try out mentality, no doubts things changes along the way. Thru this way often I may felt weak and unable to sustain, but still He did it with me again and again.. haha.. Now the time has come again, i maybe feeling fearful, guess is just part and parcel of life. During these few years, many come and go. Till now, sadness still dwell in me for those who left. However, i am also happy for those who were placed in my life by God and is God that make the relationship.

Anyway yesterday met up hannah!!! haha.. so funny sia.. The way she release stress is truely her.. lol. Went mad with her, sad with her also. True sad to hear that she intend to go mongolia that means 1 less person to relate with.. But still happy to hear that she going for the kingdom. Being random here, NYP indeed is capable to send out and sends alot of people out. haha. Will I go out and be the next one? haha.. I really dun know... Bt i don't mind going?

No doubt, there is things hindering me. Just wanna lift it up to the Lord and pray that my heart desire will be in accord with His will. Often i preach or share that that we should live our lives around God's will but honestly i find it hard to surrender it. But i will. Afterall time and again He has never shortchange me. So i boast in Him for that shall be eternal.

Die le la, my crybaby nature coming back le.. haha. =x I realise that compassion for people is there, but at the same time, this insecurity of mine is also gripping me tightly time after time. Just on saturday, i cried through out the whole worship. Know the reason? just be cause i heard from Daniel that Joshua is emo-ing, may not come for service. Although time and again God did reveal to me. but tears and sorrow just come in.. I wanna make a difference in this life changing ministry but really felt limited as well? haha..

There are times i did ponder of moving on time or early. But reasons do overwhelm me, both biblical and selfish ones. Ohh, i remember telling God if He just want me to go to NS group to serve and then move on i rather go adults or my preferred destination PSPT. haa. Am one who think alot. I also thought of contributing to the next coming ESS as a member in NS group(the next stage of life). Know why? I finally break free from my selfish reasons of not wanting to serve in stage perfomance(dance and acting) le. haha. *claps* =x

I wanna be 'David', a man seeking after God's heart. But really often i felt that i failed God. Still Lord i wanna sing your praise.. =D Jesus may You be lifted high.. I really love You with all my heart. May i sing Your will be done, my life you use.. To You my God!!

Did some personality test find it quite true.. haha.

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Lord I am with You,
Lead and bring me to Your promise land.
I'm waiting to claim my lot,
the rightfully mine.
Don't make me wait too long,
But if that's happens,
I will wait.
Wait for the right time,
And when it comes,
I will rejoices with you.
Tears of joy overflows,
So Lord may you light my way.

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~A life of excitement
~Just like a roller coaster

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>>A child of God who is weak.
>>So do pray for me.
>>Thank God for you

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-Chris Caleb Yen Wen Cong
-31st July 1989
-In Hope Church
-Loves to sing and hang out
-Living in Sengkang but feel lyk moving house. =x
-A sinful man
-has a Sister, family and a loving caregroup
-wanna has a clear and bright future
-dun wanna go NS(waste time)
-graduating from NYP in Mid Feb

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Sleep and rest
Dreams of the future
Kids

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Rejections
wake up early
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A new hp
New furnitures
LV wallet =x
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